The sword used against another will be used against you…
For most of my life I have experienced this phenomenon where
I delved into the hard places…the places where others I shared life with did not
wish to go. The depth of the mind where
the ego hides things through fear so as to keep us away from ultimate
truth. To discover this, the mastery has
called it “enlightenment.” But it is a
long hard road; because it is so unfamiliar….it is going to be scary…at first.
Working with so many people every day, and working with that
deep spiritual teacher that resides within us and delving into these depths has
given me incredible amounts of insight into how the ego works. There is an aspect of that which I would like
to discuss here.
Often I say to folks who come to see me; “if much of what I
say is not uncomfortable for you at first, run.” The reason behind this is simple. If our way of doing and seeing things is
failing (which is precisely why we are seeking assistance) then we NEED to hear
another view. One that will be
unfamiliar to us but strangely reminiscent of truth. We KNOW what is right, we just cannot remember
it therefore implement it and therefore it will feel uncomfortable, bad…but
somehow…right. So, it is a positive
aspect that the teacher we seek out is telling us things that challenge our way
and certainly at times we downright think we hate them for it.
I feel many professional counselors and healers may miss this
point. They may have not dealt with
the darkness within themselves to an adequate degree in order to assist others at that point in time. They “care” what the student thinks of them
to such a degree so therefore they become ineffective to the student/client/patient. They will not say the truth because they are worried about their image. All of us learn to say what the world believes
is appropriate, we all believe we know what being “loving” looks and sounds
like as if that is a static aspect. But is that true? Some of the most loving actions I have taken
in my office were seen as a threat by the person who came to see me for assistance. I am "threatening" their ego’s view of the
world and they do NOT wish to let this go.
I do not mean anything that is physically threatening or violent whatsoever. I am
speaking about threatening to their mindset…the way they WANT to view the
world; the very core of the issue which will prompt someone to seek help in the first place.
I started noticing a discrepancy in some healers/counselors specifically in what
they said they believed on their websites/literature and what they were
saying about others in the world (to me directly or by proxy through indirect writings). I have
heard other speak ill of me/others and then go to their websites and read things such
as “it would be a much better world if we could just get along.” This is not evil; it is just the hypocritical
trademark of the ego. I am glad it is
there though, it is obvious…and we WANT an obvious ego. But to these folks it is not so obvious so therefore they spend much time defending that very ego.
I urge all people on a spiritual journey to remember these
words: “The ego loves nothing more that to appear spiritual.” Watch your teacher. Do they shroud gossip with
intellect, subterfuge or self righteousness?
Do they make a case for how others are wrong and they are right (please
remember sometimes it is necessary to speak how something may not be right, but
you can tell when they wish to just “prove” someone else wrong)? Do they just want to be liked by you and
therefore enable you to keep doing the same things over and over? Do they teach
you there are control factors outside of us that “make” us feel the way we do,
i.e. Evil spirits or energies? No matter
how benign that sounds it is still something outside of you.
In truth nothing can make you “feel” anything. One can set off a trigger inside of you, but in the end you get to decide (even though it appears like programming) how you see, and feel about anything. Physical, mental and emotional this is the still the truth. No matter how it is shrouded by someone, if they are not teaching you that YOU are the cause and the world is effect you will be unable to heal yourself. Simply because they are teaching you that it is not YOU who are creating the situation…someone or something else is. And one cannot change the world, only their perception of it. If you do not, you will keep running into your “why is this happening again” story. Different names, faces and events but the same old feeling about those names, places and events residing within you. In the end, what negative things they say of others will be said about you; and it will be coming from a most "unlikely" source...them…eventually…in fact they already most likely feel that way, the thought already resides within them.
In truth nothing can make you “feel” anything. One can set off a trigger inside of you, but in the end you get to decide (even though it appears like programming) how you see, and feel about anything. Physical, mental and emotional this is the still the truth. No matter how it is shrouded by someone, if they are not teaching you that YOU are the cause and the world is effect you will be unable to heal yourself. Simply because they are teaching you that it is not YOU who are creating the situation…someone or something else is. And one cannot change the world, only their perception of it. If you do not, you will keep running into your “why is this happening again” story. Different names, faces and events but the same old feeling about those names, places and events residing within you. In the end, what negative things they say of others will be said about you; and it will be coming from a most "unlikely" source...them…eventually…in fact they already most likely feel that way, the thought already resides within them.
Remember this: When Mr. A speaks about Mr. B, we learn more
about Mr. A than we do about Mr. B.
Let’s speak about God for a moment. If they change the wording to Goddess, Universe,
Spirit, Mother Earth, etc…they are missing the point. Why change the word? If it makes you feel uncomfortable this is
your first lesson to transform your perception about God (more about this on my post God Notes). The word God has no meaning except what you
give it…change your meaning if you don’t like it. If you change the word, you are teaching
yourself that all you have to do is change the world and everything will be A-Okay.
We call this rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic. If you cannot transform the word “God” in your mind how do you expect to
transform how you see the world? How you
see irritation, anger, fear, anxiety, depression, etc? I used to see that word as threatening too. But was I angry at God really, the word? No, I was angry at what others decided they
wanted to tell me that word points to and means. In the words of Deepak Chopra: “God is more
unlike what you think than what you think” and “God is not only stranger than
you think, it’s stranger than you can think.”
So we have no idea conceptually of what that word actually points
to. It is within all of us, but why do
we all run away from the word when we hear it?
Certainly not because of the word really. But of what our experience by OTHERS meaning of the word was. For
suppression and fear, to conquer and keep us all in line. Do not confuse God with whoever “THEY” are to
you. We all have experiences of others
trying to tell us who or what God is. We
learned He is punitive, He is judgmental, distant, disconnected and a HE or SHE.
St. Augustine
said: “God created us in his image and we returned the favor.” Yes, in our
"infinite wisdom" they made God into a person and WE keep that mistake going. Complete in our minds with a flowing white beard
and certainly with a temper. But this was never really the case…this was OUR doing. We allowed others, the ones who came before
us and the ones before them (The sins of the Father) to create an image of God
for us. This was the most insane of the
egos tactics, so many of us have even attempted to abandon the mere idea of God. To remove God from our
sight. We have become anti theists and anti Intellects (agnostic) And their "opposite", dogmatists and zealots (they are in reality the same). Anything to further the ego’s agenda of
appearing more spiritual and keeping us from ultimate truth.
Gods is nothing of those things you have heard. If you can picture God…that’s not it. God is
not thinkable…but certainly knowable. When
one understands how this all works they will be able to translate all the worlds’
religions and make sense of them, seeing through it all transparently. As well, science will flow seamlessly into all of it.
Take God back. He is not punitive, He is NOT
distant, He is not creating pain or death.
So…if He is not any of that, who is creating all of this pain and suffering? That is the subject of another entry. Also, yes I am saying the word “He” not
because I am envisioning a gender…I have translated that word. That is the word that was used…I have changed
my mind about IT, not moved IT to meet my mind.
My next entry will be called: “Those who revile you” and
will dovetail into this one. Keep
posted.